“If you want to build a ship, don’t drum up people to
collect wood and don’t assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to
long for the endless immensity of the sea,” wrote Antoine de Saint Exupéry.
I long for the immense, endless and eternal nature of all
things beautiful. Sunrises and sunsets, mountain ranges, oceans, the night sky,
the links of love and blood and bone and skin that connect humans across time
and space. And I think of what boat we might build as something that will hold
us as we sail out to live in ways that will make us more worthy of the company
of such boundless beauty.
This weekend I attended a gathering of scientists and
conservationists and un-quantifiable “ists” who love the mountains and alpine
zones of New England and the world with a rare passion. It was splendid to be
in such company—to know that in a room of mostly strangers, there is something
bone-deep held in common. And, in light of that shared spirit, I sat through
numerous presentations by various scientists explaining their technical work in
the name of research and conservation and preservation.
But, like Walt Whitman at an astronomy lecture, I found
myself growing foggy. In the facts and figures and PowerPoint slides, I felt
that the perfect wonder of these places was going unsung. I trust that those
who do science find it their best way to decipher the wild wonder and ragged
glee that beauty leaves on our hearts. That they take their “Rite in the Rain”
notebooks out into the hills and tabulate the columns, charts and diagrams
because the endless immensity of what they find begs to be brought forth in the
language they speak. I hope so, that their numbers are the same as my words, and we all understand that these tools can only gesture towards the unspeakable immensity of such things.
I say “they.” Because I am not a scientist. When I read
nature guidebooks, when I listen to presentations of scientific findings, my
poetic imagination pulls up image after image and I am lost in a sea of
stories. That alpine zones are like small islands, scattered across the
mountainsides and far northern reaches of the globe—a terrestrial constellation
of small beauty amid the snows and harsh winds of the world—this is more poetic psalm
than science. Read the Latin names of plants, the descriptions of their habitat
and abilities to survive, and the poetry is as real as your beating heart and
the breath that catches in your lungs. Diapensia lapponica. Stellaria borealis. Silen acaulis. Betula glandulosa.
It rankles more than a bit to see the wonder and poetry
squeezed out of sight by science and research. For one, this makes it harder for
anyone with an unscientific approach to crack into conservation—it makes the
world salvation solely the province of the scientists, which is a lot of weight
for all those good, geeky Atlases to hold up on their own. I struggled for
years against my better-suited nature because all the obvious avenues towards
conservation, preservation, and world salvaging went through the sciences. And,
when you, like I do, find the Periodic Table, the food chain and the water cycle
fascinating as proof of the holy connectedness of all things, it makes it a
challenge to fill in the right numbers on all your charts and graphs, your
tasks and the available work for building this ship we need.
Science and logic, they have their place. But, if what we
are out to do here is save the world, it is truly a battle for hearts and
bodies, not minds. We need to allow ourselves to long for the immensity and
unknowable things out there, and, if we
must measure that, then we must weigh all that wonder equally with the numbers
and graphs of science. Research has limits, the heart has none.
Like any other good liberal, I have a canvas tote bag with a
quote from Thoreau on it: “Things do not change; we change.” All that research
and science, this is only saying that change is happening in the world, change
that we the humans are largely responsible for. The world will not get better
without our changing our own ways of being. And, so the question we are left
with, at the end of the science is what will make us change into the sort of
deeper-thinking, humbler, happier and kinder-to-each-other-and-the-wider-world
people we might still become?
I don’t know. But I suspect that the answer must be wilder
and more immense than can fit on any box-and-whisker plot, that our individual
and collective passions for the world will overwhelm any scientific model.
Perhaps the good science being done—the tasks and wood gathering for this
ship—can drive policies that will shape us into a better-being society. I hope
so. But I think that the for these actions responsibility and honor lies more fully in our own hearts, in
recognizing the reality and longings for beauty, and acting on that in whatever
way is right for each of us, scientists and poets and astronomers and
shipbuilders and humans all.
Life changing answers arrive from science and artists and everyday human beings. Inventions change us: smart cell phones, hybrid cars and organic food. Access to the best culture and technologies, literature and information. One day we awake in a different body, changed world.
ReplyDeleteAnother world is possible. Expect change.